ARE YOU LUKEWARM

WORD FROM.. AN X LUKEWARM HEART.. I have been told that im a bit.. intense.. well that I am.. some say im well.. a 10 or more.. but.. I know when I have been in my walk with the Lord.. and I... wasnt.. I had become.. a bit.. to comfy.. and used excuses as to why.. I wasnt always running to the House of the Lord.. or to His word.. I found I wasnt .. out there sharing the Lord with others.. as I once had.. well.. that would have been a bit hypocritical though.. as my life wasnt burning for revival any more.. I wasnt much different that the world.. It appeared there was a time..many years back.. though my heart loved God.. I had.. left my first love and crowded Him out.. with.. other things.. from my children.. to tv to my job .. and compromise began to set in.. without me even noting it.. though.. I then began to get.. depressed.. and angry at my self.. as I disgusted myself.. I dont care what my x spouse was doing.. what the children were doing.. what was happening at my job.. it was ME.. I had control of my walk with the Lord.. if I had grown and got into the deeper things of God.. that was on me.. and I wanted to just spit my own self out of my mouth.. tragIcally  that is what the Lord said about me during tha time too.. as it appeared I had become.. lukewarm.. though no one else knew it.. but I did.. and what I had to do was be honest.. about ME and quit focusing on me me me me and I.. and stop being lazy with my faith.. I was missing it..and even if it wasnt taught within the Church.. which many its not. it is in the WORD and the Holy Spirit would have taught me.. but I was to busy.. with my Flesh.. wow.. Thank you Lord for dropping me to my knees.. and teaching me.. placing a fire within my belly again.. that was just like when I was transformed.. 29 years ago.. `marni~j~j  written 12/15/16