A lack of Obidience

When I sit and look at so many things over the past years , I take note of many things the Lord had spoke to my heart about.  So many things amidst much pain and grief.  The Lord told me to start a blog.. a ministry of sorts.  Which I did however, I was slack in stepping away from FB to write on the Blog.  I was not in obedience.  I was to follow the leading of the Lord To bring the Lord glory.  During all of this He used my pain, loneliness, betrayal and my self loathing pity party   to continue to transform me.  Truly something I hadn't realized had not been completed when the Lord Himself first called me and I said Yes.  Something that sadly the Church doesn't really talk about.  Not truly.

There is so much the Lord through the Holy spirit has taught me. Most probably the biggest thing I learned.. well we suddenly start listening to man when the Lord stated very clearly My Sheep will know my voice and the Holy Spirit will be your teacher. It doesn't mean the Lord hasn't called and then chosen those to be proven to be trusted with His Word.  To teach, to be Prophets evangelist, Pastors Apostles but the Lord also warned about follow them and being led astray.  To always test the Spirit with the Spirit if it is not from what you first were taught by the Holy Spirit when He first came into you then upon you to give you power then you have gone astray.  Remember the Lord had them teach if anyone teaches ANOTHER JESUS may he be accursed .
I truly do not know where to begin in this as so much is being and has been revealed to me.  But I will start with this.. the enemy is quick.. he  is right there waiting out of the opening gate in fact so many think the gate has been opened but in fact it has not but they just followed the tradition of man.

I truly feel like a damn about to burst.. not in a good way.. as within my heart holds much troubling truth that the Lord has shown me over the years.. through many trials.. and falls , sorrows .. with great joy and peace in some of the valleys and some..not so much but in all of this as I have been seeking His ways.. subconsciously some days as those days "felt" dark.. and I will hopefully be able to relay all as much is happening in our world and much is coming...

Please Seek the Lord while He may be found.. All... who read this.. as so many of us think we are His however.. if the Lord were to stand before us today.. or shall I say if we were to stand before Him.. today He would say DEPART FROM ME I NEVER KNEW YOU..
May the FEAR of GOD fall upon all of us this day.. In Jesus Name..